| | That had been in my head for a long long time. At least for a month. I really don't know what to do with my life. Mom is crying every single day, and i know she cant take the family's responsibility already. I can no longer focus on my studies at the moment. No doubt, i know what i am capable of in studies. I won't say i am a genius but i know if i can keep focus and put in my 100% effort, i will be able to go through this. But honestly, how can i not worry about my mom when she kept crying and wanting to commit suicide. I really can't do it, i am having insomnia for a month already. I had kept this very well hidden and only lengseen knew about this. I am really struggling with my life at the moment, and yea i know many of you would think that everything is solvable, but seriously, how? My mom has a mortgage of 3k to be paid every month for this house. Selling the house? The proceeds will only be enough to pay of the mortgage and she wont get back a single penny. Changing of work? Where else can a 50 year old woman whom is uneducated earn that kinda money to support the family? I know if this condition persist, i would definitely fail my clp, i am very sure of that. But i know if i failed my clp, mom would be so disappointed in me. I tried speaking to her about my problems and i really can't focus, but she did not give reassuring words, instead she said, if she were to die, it would solve all the problems. So how could i share my problems with my mom anymore? I am contemplating quitting this course and get a job so i can contribute to the family. What do you guys suggest me to do? I really need loads of advice and opinions.
p/s - i know most of my christian friend would say believe in god, have faith and all.. i know what u guys are going to tell me because that is what i am telling myself everyday.. well, let's just say i need some practical suggestions..
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